Monday, September 05, 2005

Instead of a summer of love, i am having a summer of loss, and it isnt always such a bad thing.

things i have dropped:

a couple of pounds (not as many as i would have liked, but a start all the same)

my favorite sunglasses (fuck)

my ipod (double fuck)

a few friends (peace at any price is the motto of the day)

my addiction to television (now that six feet under is over whats the point?)

most of the food pyramyd (no meat, wheat, dairy, soy, or corn)

a few (but unfortunately not all) pretensions

this blog (sometimes i miss it, mostly i dont)

the need for attention and anonymous approval gained via this site

my ambitions to be a part of the world

most people go through life always wanting more, and it has slowly dawned on me that what i want is a whole lot less.

posted by Ms_Bunnie 5:02 AM
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Monday, August 15, 2005

ok so i know i have been gone for a long time, call it a summer vacation if you will. i got some shit to work out, shit which i pormise when it is all worked out i will happily share here once it is all done. till then, if anyone is still rerading, why dont you send a message to congress:

http://nrdcactionfund.org/articphotos/tellafriend.asp

it only takes a minute and doesnt cost a thing.

i will be back soon, i promise, just taking a little rest.

posted by Ms_Bunnie 5:39 AM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005

bryan was sweet enough to send me this link:

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=banish

which has a list of words the author thinks should be banished from our lexicon, the various congegations of the word "blog" being featured prominently. here is an excerpt:

BLOGGER: Term used to describe anyone with enough time or narcissism to document every tedious bit of minutae filling their uneventful lives...

or

BLOGGING: If minds had anuses, blogging would be what you mind would do when it had to take a dump.

thats pretty funny. i don't wholeheartedly embrace his opinion, but i can see that he has a point. it isnt that i am all down on blogging, but i dont have the time i used to to sit around and find things to write about, all of my navel gazing now happens in perpetual motion. as a result the fate of this blog hangs in limbo.

i dont want to abandon it entirely, but i have yet to figure out how to make it work in my new life where time to do even the most basic things runs short. i know there are other people out there who juggle far more than i do and still manage, but so far i havent figured out their tricks.

on the other hand, i miss writing but it's nice to have a break and work on other things. i took a photo for the first time in months and as a result have the camera bug again. Mister's brother is staying with us for the month and is a photographer as well so we have gotten into the habit of carrying them around with us. its fun, we have similar styles so i notice we are always jumping to shoot the same stuff. i have been having some good luck with the camera at work too, yesterday i documented procedure done on a turtle.

i am also beginning oil painting lessons today, with a man whose cat i give fluids to at their home. i have had sucess with watercolors and guace before but oil takes so much more skill and gives a much nicer finish so this is just another direction to explore.

so anyway, thats the latest in my world for anyone out there who might still be visiting. i dont blame the readers who leave, if i cant bother to keep up why should anyone else? i'll be back sooner or later...

posted by Ms_Bunnie 8:32 AM
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

i was going to write about this when it happened but i was too pissed off. the fucking fuckheads on the supreme court have voted that the government can take away our land and homes to give to PRIVATE corporations if it would "improve" the community. so now they can bulldoze our houses and put up malls, hotels, and health clubs. because yuou know, we have a serious shortage of malls in this country.


that is so fucking ridiculous. do we need further proof that the government is more interested in being in bed with big business than protecting the people? how are people not outraged? do they just not notice, or do they not care because no one has tried to take away their home yet? where are all of the good ole boys with their shotguns? you'll fight for your guns but you wont fight for your land?

land is a form of power and we have just essentially lost all of ours...our rights are chipped away steadily and no one notices. we live like cows on the way to slaughter, walking in a docile line to meet our end, by the time we catch a whiff of the fear ahead it is too late.

and to america i would like to quote the ever eloquent marylin manson:

i wasn't born with enough middle fingers.

ahh...but wait. someone does care, and not only are they caring but they are doing it with style:

http://www.freestarmedia.com/hotellostliberty2/.html

and a special thanks to mr. slob for the link, you made my day.

posted by Ms_Bunnie 5:22 PM
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Sunday, June 19, 2005

has it really been so long?

Mister's brother is coming for a month long visit at the end of this week and i have no where for him to stay. for our occasional guests we have a pull out couch, not the worst one i have ever slept on, but who wants to sleep in a living room for a month? so i have been working to get something cobbled together, which of course includes a disasterous trip to IKEA.

i have seen the catalouges where they show off these fabulous looking rooms and flash the ultra low price across the top, and i checked out a few pieces on the internet, so i am thinking one trip is going to solve all my problems. thanks to the vets offic i have a couple of bucks in our checking account and all i really need is a futon, a duvet cover, and a pair of curtains. this should be easy.

i head straight for the futons, and go look for the one i saw online and see it is not listed as it was at 200 dollars but 427. stunned, i try looking at the other ones and notice there is a fantastic range in price and quality. i realized the reason the price was higher than i thought it would be was because the mattress and cover are not included, only the frame. a ha. i found the cheapest one which resembled an oversized book of matches in both size and comfort and immediately began to try and justify the departure of 427 dollars. i am quite surprised at how fast i was able to do it...if i get a nicer futon we can have more visitors...a good piece of furniture is an investment...if it lasts 10 years it will have only been 42.70 a year...pleased with myself i moved on to housewares.

the curtains were all hanging in luscious rows, so i jumped right in and started pawing them, losing myself momentarily in the variety of textures. it was short lived bliss as i quickly remembered i had a mission to fulfill and my decision had to match the soft pumpkin we painted the walls. in retrospect it may not have been the easiest color to match things to but it was too late to go back now so after much flip flopping i settled on latte brown silk curtains. which ended up being the most expensive, but also out of stock. "probably for the best", my checkbook chimed in, and i grabbed the cheap unbleached canvas ones instead.

things took a turn for the worse in the duvet department, as they were all hideous and/or the wrong size. bed bath and beyond it is then...

losing my patience, i head down to the self serve bins to get my over priced futon. the boxes are larger than i had anticipated, but i quickly shoved my concerns about it fitting in the car aside in favor of struggling to get the 75 pound box on to my very wheely cart. wrestling with and inantmate object that is half my body weight was less fun than it sounds, in the end there were bruised toes, paper burns from the cardboard, and a small dent in my wheelie cart. but fuck it, it was on there, i had all my goodies and i was ready to go.

i wheel my ass up to check out and wait on line staring idly at the plexiglass booth containing the cashier. a flyer trapped behind the plastic catches my eye...the payment and return policy. i read it out of boredom and when i get to the bottom it says, "as of june 1st 2005 we will no longer be accepting personal checks."

fuck it.

the total of my items greatly exceeds my atm daily limit and i dont have a credit card. i wheel my cart to the side, too tired and frustrated to put it all back, and go home. i dont know how i am going to figure this all out, but i have six days to do it.

wish me luck!

posted by Ms_Bunnie 6:49 PM
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005

i'm late...i'm late...for a very important date, no time to say hello goodbye i'm late i'm late i'm late!

thats the sort of white rabbit i have been recently. activity dicatates that whole days slip by without me even turning on the the computer. who can imagine such things? 6 months ago i certainly couldn't, but here i am, email hangs in suspended animation, websites go unread, and i dont even really care. well, ok, secretly i do, i miss my friends and the feeling of being plugged in, but mostly i miss the internet in that, "addictions can only really be savored once they have been broken" kind of way. every indulgence i allow myself only reaches it's true climax upon denial.

posted by Ms_Bunnie 4:44 PM
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Sunday, May 29, 2005

feeling a bit better about the human race...ok well not really. i still think that we overwhelmingly suck, but it isnt bothering me quite as much as the last time i posted. i guess the turning point for me was when i realized (yet again) that there isnt much i can do about it except turn my eyes forward to what i can do myself. narrow my vision to my tiny world, keep it small, and try not to notice how awful, mundane, mediocre, useless, tacky, consumptive, arrogant, greedy, wasteful....ooops there i go again. time to put the blinders back on.

we took a few days to go up to cape cod and visit my grandma who is doing a tour of the east coast for the first time since my grandfather died. it rained the whole time we were there, but we had such a great time catching up. the out of season nor-easter blew in a whole flock of ultra rare birds so Mister was thrilled as he is now the envy of all of his birding friends. we opted to sit in the car chatting while we watched him climb up on the breakers and get pelted with flying sand. we were sort of laughing at his crazy dedication until we realized that the car lights were left on and the battery had run down so i had to go out in the mess and try to flag down people with jumper cables. eventually someone took pity on us and i was out there with my ponytail whipping around my face while i tried to connect the wires but the wind was so strong i was afraid to put the hoods up completely for fear that they would be blown clear off. in the end i got the car running but was picking sand out of my hair for the remainder of the trip.

learned some interesting things, as i do each time i see grandma. this time i learned that we may be jewish, which is something that oddly had never been mentioned before considering we were all technically raised presbetyrian. i also learned that my father, who i have never met, was apparently quite smart. this goes against everything ever intimated about him previously, but then again no one likes to talk about him at all, and when they do its never nice. along the lines of not nice things, i heard about how he had slipped a qualuude in my graqndfathers drink one evening, which resulted in my grandfather taking him out the next night and threatening him with a gun. thats a family legend so i knew he had done that, but i never knew why until now. it also explains why my grandfather had a lifelong suspicion of people slipping mickeys, which actually came in sort of handy whenever you got caught doing something you shouldnt.

but now we are home again, and expecting guests for memorial day weekend. i dont care for holidays excapt that they get you a day off from work and a chance to invite people up for a cook out. all hail the offical start of the summer season.

oh, and on a final note, last night my metal clothing rack collapsed in on itelf under the weight of all my dresses. Mister says this is gods way of telling me i have too many clothes, so i'll be publishing a link to my ebay account soon in case anyone is interested.

posted by Ms_Bunnie 8:54 AM
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